wow!

from my last post in feb to sept...
life has been INTERESTING! and i could not be HAPPIER!
yall wouldn't understand! just know that the direction that this blog was going in... let's just say it's taking a detour! details are soon to come!

so for now? my blog is....

[[UNDER.CONSTRUCTION]]

what i need from you is understanding...

i'm ready to step out... do something new... i'm goin' to mardigras next week for valentine's.... that should be the business.... then after spring break will be here... idk what the hell i will be doing... but i'll be ready and down for whatever!!! oh shit, i forgot about the photo shoot on monday the 15.... EARLY IN THE DAMN MORNING! but i'm ready...
my life is really making some good moves... i'm ready for things to get jumpin... life is gonna be good soon! i feel it... SERIOUSLY I DO!
i'm effin' ready for it!!!

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all in all...

all that i can say... doo do doo do doo do doooooo!!!
all that i can say is... i apologize...
for one, to God... we have drifted Lord... I've been focusing all my attention, time and effort on everything BUT You! You deserve more than my life and I have not been giving you that... I appreciate everyday you give to me, I appreciate every breath I take... but I never make time to tell you that... I'm really venting right now bc i know things have been dry... I use to eat, sleep, and breathe You but now?.... it's not the same... I should have let the "situation" change anything between us and i'm sorry... no, i apologize... bc i am a child of God, and you did NOT create me to be sorry!
for two, to myself because i have NOT been taking time out for myself... as busy as my life is now, i take ZERO time for myself... i try so hard to but things have just been moving full throttle since December... The only things I do for myself are nails, eat, and shower.... NOW THAT'S A DAMN SHAME!!!!!

i vow to take start back reading, start focusing on my future, spend more time with the Man, spend time with my family, pray a little harder (for ppl other than myself, family, and friends) and just DO! Do all that I say I will do... put my mind to accomplishing my goals and be on the market... I'm feeling a little friendly (if you know what i mean)

get it!!!

wow!
so i haven't been on here in like SO effing long!
so much has happened and gon on that it's ridiculous! But i'll catch you up later...
But i've been watching CandyGirls since the season started.... and my vision for my life has become clearer and clearer EVERY TIME I WATCH IT! I know what I wanna do with my life... I know how I wanna prosper and help others prosper... I know what it's gonna take, I know where I wanna be, I know EVERYTHING... i just don't know who to make the first business call to... hmmmm....
But when I tell you I'm super excited... i PROMISE i am SOOOOOOOOOOO excited...

I can't reveal it until I have all the tweeks nibbled...

but i wish i had friends on this thing so I can have some support... :(

?shawty what yo name is?

so today...
today was a dragging day.... i was so ready for it to be over that i didn't know what to do with myself! all i could think about is what i was gonna end up doing by later on tonite... so since the time is now, i guess i'll spend my last hrs awake BLOGGING WITH YOU PPL! I know tomorrow isn't gonna be any different bcuz i'm not gonna be busy... so again, the day will drag! but anyhoo... here's my piece for today...

do this do that
allow things to be
what they be
because indeed
the eternity of this fluency is in me
every breath i breathe is filling
every sight i see becomes unifying
the underlying proclamation of the eminency is completely
eternally
internally
the outer most understanding of reality in me

what am i?
comment if you've figured it out...

//this is me//

THIS IS ME...
my melody
is into me
as i enter it
it's... like a feeling
that i can't stop generating
understand?
you see...
the inner me is being intuitively inspirational to me
as I
breathe it soothes me
and relaxes my soul
and molds my deepest thoughts
and I unfold
what life beholds due to the
understanding of my own beauty
the animosity between me and thee seems to flee
and the
understanding of my own beauty....
IS me
and i realize that the only way to be
is in He...
who created me
and elevated me to be what i [be]
and I unfold
what life beholds due to the
understanding of my own beauty
so that IS ME
my beauty... it defines
Me

new.year

2008 was full of the most trying situations i've ever been thru. aside from senior yr, 2008 was full of so much drama and CRAP that i am DELIGHTED to leave back in 2008... i am so excited for this new year that my entire ASS is on fire!!! i know that with all that I have been thru in the previous years, this is my year of manifestation! not saying that i wont go thru anything or wont have any issues, just saying that i know my latter will be greater than my now... that after all my praying, crying, and sowing.... i will REAP in 2009!

i'm greatful for 2009 ALREADY.... i'm just that confident...

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